Saturday, July 4, 2009

A sudden silence

It's awfully rare these days that I suddenly find myself in a writing mood. There are times where I will find something blogworthy, or where I'll feel obligated to update all of you (probably largely consisting of myself, in the future) about my life. But this is a typey time.

I'm sort of losing track of exactly where my life is heading. So many massive changes have come about in the past half year. I barely know who I am anymore. It's a funny sort of "profile-emulation crisis", or PEC, that I've run into. That is, I hardly know how to answer even those basic questions, such as, "What are your interests?" or "Describe yourself:".

Dramatic, yes. Really though, since January I've undergone a lot of massive changes. My experiences with gender have been far-flung and eclectic; the relationships I hold have changed quite dramatically, and surprisingly (that is, considering my past luck) for the better. I'm living with the girl I love, and I'm loving every living minute. I'm on track to getting my Associate's of Sciences, which will lock me firmly in place on the track to a bachelor's degree in I Don't Even Know What. I'm settling into CO, while at the same time always planning for the next time I suddenly need to get up and move.

In all, if I were to summarize how the past 13 months or so have gone, I would say that I've harvested what I've sewn, cut through the chaff, and reaped the benefits. I know that there's an awful lot more that I don't know than what I previously thought I didn't know. I've learned a bunch of lessons that have been trying to teach themselves to me for years. It's definitely a good thing.

That's all I can say right now. More will be forthcoming as events develop. But until then, pce.

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